This is a picture of 5 of our babies. L to R: Daniel, Karson, Libby, Mai Ya, Mr. Wu.

Daniel left with his new parents a few days after this photo was taken.

Karson was not happy about this situation at all. He is crying in all the pictures we took like this!

The two girls don't seem to mind it a bit, and Mr. Wu makes it obvious what he thinks about the whole thing!

They take a group photo like this every few weeks I think. I'll try and get a new one up soon of all the babies.

Tonight is going fairly well. I only have 2 hrs and 15 minutes until I can sleep. I've kept up on the feedings, which is a miracle. Libby woke up twice but I can't be mad at her cuz she's been sick. Mr. Pan wouldn't eat at his second feeding. Shame on him.

I miss the day shift though. For many reasons but right now mostly because I miss playing with the babies. I miss Henry the most. He is such a sweet baby and soooo cute!!!! That is him in the picture. And "cute as a button" is right! He can go from crying to laughing in 3 seconds.

I have a feeling I'll be happy to go home in December but I will miss these faces and personalities. They have become "my babies".

Night shift again... it's going better so far but it's still only 1:45am. I prayed about it today and asked God to help the babies sleep well and that Baby Zung would not drive me insane like he did last night. So far I've only had 3 awake at one time.

This is a picture of my baby girl Libby. She's spoiled rotten and doesn't care! They say I'm partial to her and that I always pick her up when she cries. She loves to be held, just to get the attention.

Jessica is back and my world feels a little better because of it. It was just weird being here alone. Oh and she brought me Peanut M&M's which were awesome! And she bought spaghetti noodles which we cooked tonight and mixed in our American Prego spaghetti sauce! Mmm, good!

It's Sunday back home and everyone is at church or just getting out. I miss church.

Jessica left this morning to spend today, and part of Sunday in Taipei with a friend. It feels not right without her. I know she reads this blog so I wanted to make sure she knows that I miss her and am VERY VERY VERY thankful she is here on this trip with me. I could not do it without her.

I am on night shift again tonight. I think we're gonna try to make this permanent, as long as I can train my body to sleep during the day. If my room were dark I could do it no problem, but it has a huge uncovered window and I do not sleep well in the light. We'll just see what happens.

I tried seaweed soup today. It was... ok. I would eat it if I had nothing else to eat and hadn't eaten for about 3 days. Other than that... I'll stick with the rice and chicken.

It's not even 11pm and I am tired.

Today...
I am going through it one minute at a time. Literally. It's good though. We've been here two weeks, settling into a routine that by December will be very familiar.

Lunch today was fried rice. Mmmm, yummy! I love it! I'd eat it everyday! They also had tiny fried whole fish but I passed on those. I'm not sure I'll be able to make myself eat whole seafood. I don't like seafood at all, especially when it's looking at me! In Mexico they fried these really big whole fish for one meal too. One of the boys was making his talk to me while I was trying to eat. Lovely!

I took a 30 minute bike ride by myself today. Around the lake twice and then just random roads. I loved it. Gave me a chance to clear my head (or try to) and enjoy some fresh (even if it was very warm) air. I think I'll make it a daily occurence regardless of the weather.

Today, I am going crazy. one less person here to help watch the babies... one sick 11 month old, one sick 1 month old, the rest are crying and fussy...
it was the same yesterday. I had to put one of them down and leave the other room cuz i was so frustrated.
Please, please, please let it get better!

My babies are starting to tighten their grip on my heart. Sometimes during the day when they are being bad, I could just... I don't really know, leave maybe? But then at night when I'm having a conversation with Karson about how if he doesn't drink his bottle than he's going to bed hungry, or holding Mai Ya and rocking her, or telling Libby how beautiful she is...I get sad thinking about leaving them. And jealous of the adoptive families. I'm glad they are going to loving homes, but I almost hate hearing about the families just cuz I don't want to give my babies.