My babies are starting to tighten their grip on my heart. Sometimes during the day when they are being bad, I could just... I don't really know, leave maybe? But then at night when I'm having a conversation with Karson about how if he doesn't drink his bottle than he's going to bed hungry, or holding Mai Ya and rocking her, or telling Libby how beautiful she is...I get sad thinking about leaving them. And jealous of the adoptive families. I'm glad they are going to loving homes, but I almost hate hearing about the families just cuz I don't want to give my babies.